During Lent, Will and I’s church in Waco has been teaching on the Psalms of Disorientation. The Psalms of disorientation are the Psalms that express those emotions we all feel sometimes but don’t always talk about — depression, worry, confusion, abandonment and so much more. This series has really spoke to me and Will as we are stumbling through what our last post described as the great unknown.
One of the biggest messages to me through this series has been about waiting on God and His perfect plan. Over the past couple of weeks, we have not received the acceptance letters we have greatly anticipated. Instead, the opposite has happened.
One of my favorite songs right now is by Francesca Battistelli, called Strangely Dim. The lyrics of her song speak to what Will and I have been experiencing over the past 3 months or so. We have been clinging on to a plan. A plan that we believed was perfect for us. We were sure that we would be moving out of Texas and into a big city. As Francesca Battistelli sings, we were waiting and praying for what we were holding on to so tightly. And when we received rejection letters, we began to experience these disorienting feelings described in Psalms. We had honestly forgotten to seek God and to seek God’s plan for us because we were too occupied with our own plans.
We are blessed that our God is FULL of second chances as we are struggling through this great unknown. We are learning about the challenges and the beauty of waiting on God. I was blessed to wake up to this on my Instagram feed yesterday.
(You might need to click on the picture to read it better. This is from the book called Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. I have friends that have spoken very highly of the devotional and recently started following them on Instagram.)
This is what Will and I are trying our hardest to do. We are in hopeful anticipation of what God will do in our lives. We discuss our future plans daily and are easily taken hostage by what we believe is best for us. It’s disorienting to say the least to feel like God is not there. To feel like we have been waiting forever with no answer. But we are thankful for family, friends, and a church that encourages us that if we are still and bask in the presence of God, that there is hope and a greater plan than we can ever imagine.